How Does It Feel?

I lost someone that really did inspire me this past week. Weirdly, it's connected me back to myself in this fucked-up way. This past week was also the first time in a year that I felt seen by someone I'm not close to, and it meant more than you know.

The more I focus on the things that aren't serving me, the less I provide to the people around me. I know we get lost in search of the right thing, but I know I'm closer to finding it. God has given me examples that I don't want to follow, but beautiful things I will continue to follow. I know I'm close. I know I have so much love around me.

What do I have to lose? What really is mine? Nothing. No answers. Just feelings. I will continue to be grateful for it all.